My entire life I have been an “emotional” person. I have always spoken my mind and I have always been passionate. Passionate when it comes to my relationships, friendships, my future, etc. But I have always been told that my “passion” was too much. That I needed to learn how to watch what I say, and that I need to keep my “passion” under control.
So I began trying to hide my emotions. I built walls in order to hide how I was truly feeling from the world. While I still tried to speak my mind, I held my tongue in order to protect others feelings. I changed who I was as a person to conform to societies standards.
While respect is huge in my book, I feel like “holding your tongue” is a form of deceit. Protecting someone’s feelings is not always what they need. It is actually rarely what one needs. If you are making a mistake, wouldn’t you want those closest to you to bring that to your attention? If you were about to make a poor financial decision, wouldn’t you want someone to call you out? Hiding the truth or even your opinion is deceitful to the people around you, and even yourself. In life there will be times that you need someone to hit you with the cold hard truth. So why does society want people to “hold their tongue” when it isn’t going to get anyone anywhere positive?
If you’ve read this far you may not agree with what I am saying, and that is okay. Everyone is entitled to their own opinions. But let me answer the question. Society is built on the basis that emotions mean weakness. That honestly may bring out that weakness (emotions). Everyone has this idea that staying strong means that we have to be emotionless. That we have to pick up and move on before we even have a chance to process how we are feeling. This causes a society that is cold to the ones they love and their communities.
For whatever reason this is how the world has been trained. But this is not how it should be. Humans have feelings for a reason. Without feeling, the world would be a dull and colorless place. Without emotion we would not have beauty. Without honestly, we would continue to make mistakes without asking ourselves if we should change our ways.
At the peak of my eating disorders I needed honestly. I needed someone in my life that was brave enough to get me to see the darkness that was surrounding me. The one person that was brave enough to call me out changed my entire life. Changed the way I view the world, and definitely changed the way I live my life today.
You see, today I am a fearless woman. Today I am unafraid to speak my mind regardless of scrutiny. Today I can proudly say that I am an “emotional” person. I am unafraid to cry, scream, grieve, or even love. This is because emotion is human. Being aware of your emotions is a strength that cannot be touched. While others may judge your for being a “passionate” person, I can promise your life will be more fulfilled when you stop listening to those people. There is a way to be honest while showing compassion. There is a way to feel your emotions in a productive way. Do not conform to societies standards. Let you “passion” run free. Be yourself. Because you are beautiful, you are strong, and you are worthy.