I remember holding you for the first time. So many emotions came over me. Fear, excitement, and most of all love. The kind of love that you cannot replace. I knew that regardless of what the future held, I would fight to give you the best life possible.
There were times that we struggled and all I could do was cry. Just hoping and praying for your sake that we would make it through. I had to muster up every bit of courage I had. There was no giving up. I didn’t just have myself to take care of anymore. I had you.
I still have you. You are my motivation. Every day you grow older and accomplish something new. It’s a reminder how fast time goes by. Eventually I will no longer hear your contagious laugh or your feet running through the house. You will be all grown up living your own life.
I’ve spent many nights worrying if I was raising you right. If I was to hard on you or if I should have spent five more minutes watching cartoons with you. Even now I question myself. “ What could I have done better?”. In all reality I could be better for you. And I know that. But I have always tried my best. I may not always succeed but I will keep fighting for you everyday of my life.
I hope that when you are grown you have a strong foundation to build you future from. You will do the right thing (most of the time). And you will be able to make it farther in life than I ever could. But most of all I hope you remember how much I love you.